Butterfly Boy

I wrote this poem as a way of retelling the Taoist philosopher Zhuangzi's famous story, The Dream of the Butterfly. Discussions of oneness, awareness and transformation have been inspired by the story's telling and retelling over the 2300 years since Zhuangzi wrote his insights into human nature and the nature of the cosmos.

Butterfly Boy

In the warmth of the sun,

In the cool of the breeze,
a boy went to sleep
in the shade of the trees
and dreamt,
he was a butterfly.
With silken wings
of colours bright,
He swooped and soared,
both left and right.
No happier creature
ever took flight.
Then he alighted
on a leaf,
And the boy
awakened
from his deep, deep sleep.
My wings are limbs
I cannot fly.
I am a boy dreaming 
I was a butterfly.
But then his heart 
it leapt for joy,
Perhaps he was a butterfly,
dreaming
he was a boy.

Who am I? How do we define ourselves?  So often we are defined by our relationship with others; Roman's wife, Moriah's mother, Lorna's daughter. We identify with our work: Morgan the storyteller, musician or writer, or our socio-cultural identity: Australian, global citizen, woman, feminist. We are like the elephant in the Indian story 'The 6 blind Men and the Elephant', who each man describes differently, depending on what part he has touched.  I am all and none of the above, depending on the context I am defining myself in. As to being ascribed an identity by others, that is simply for the describer's convenience. Sometimes I feel like the broadest epithet is the most appropriate for me. I am a human being. But there have been times when I don't feel human. There have been times when I don't feel...
We believe we can be anything, everything, something, or nothing. The fact that these feelings can co-exist is testament to the mutable nature of our identity.
The Boy and the Butterfly is a comfort to me in the paradoxical world of constant change. A reminder that all things pass, and in the words of the Greek Philosopher Heraclitus, (544 - 483 BCE) No man ever steps in the same river twice, for it's not the same river and he's not the same man. 

Photo by Roman W. Schatz

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The Useless Tree


I look at my mandolin and I think about my role as a lifesaver.  Drowning in a river? Quick, grab my mandolin and I'll pull you out. Maybe not. And the roar went up,' Its the storyteller, the city is saved!' These are unlikely scenarios, but do beg the question of the role of artists, musicians and writers to 'save the world.' I do lump us all together because there is a crossover in both our working mediums and identity. As a storyteller I identify as all three. And I'm sure you couldn't find three more useless groups if you looked the world over (lets assume jugglers, dancers, actors and poets are in the mix). We are not builders, engineers, manufacturers, agriculturalists, doctors, scientists, cleaners...in short, useful people. Plumbers are needed, painters are not, unless they paint buildings and bridges. Maths, English and Science are mandatory school subjects, whereas art, dance, drama and music are not. You may well hear 'we're all very proud of him; he's a surgeon/chemist/architect, but how often do you hear 'we're all very proud of him, he's a poet? 

While I am in agreement with the sentiment of the US painter Robert Henri (1865 - 1929) who said that he was interested in art as a means of living a life; not as a means of making a living, the reality is that being a storyteller is how I make my living. I know I am not going to invent a life saving medicine or help humanity in any great way. No-one is ever going to say 'We've got an emergency. Is there a storyteller in the house?' Some may consider artists indulgent and art a luxury, but I believe art serves a purpose.  A play may act as a bridge between cultures, a poem may inspire hope, a song may revive a spirit, a painting document history, a sculpture unite a community and a story may offer a means of understanding the world. The intrinsic value of art is stated succinctly by Albert Camus (1913 -1960) in his declaration, 'There is not a single true work of art that has not in the end added to the inner freedom of each person who has known and loved it.' 
In that light I'd like to share my tale, extrapolated from the story, The Useless Tree by the fourth century BCE Chinese Philosopher Chuang Tzu, now known as  Zhuangzi. 

There was once an old man who took his grandson to the top of a hill, where stood a solitary tree. Its trunk was knotted and gnarled, its branches twisted and bent. The boy turned to his grandfather and asked why he had brought him to this tree. 
The old man smiled and gestured to the barren land around them.
"Once the earth here was covered with tall trunked, straight limbed trees, but the woodcutters came and cut them all down for their timber."
"But why didn't they take this one?" asked the boy.
"Because it is of no use to them," answered the Grandfather.
And the two sat down in the shade of the useless tree and shared stories. 

Photo: The Useless Tree by Roman W. Schatz

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